i don't wanna go another way
so i'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
seems like everybody's breaking up
and throwing their love away
i want you to kno that you're the only one for me.

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been facing alot of problems these past few days.
it's very personal and i don't wanna talk about it here.
so, today, i'm just gonna talk about relationships.
in this world, in our life, we face alot alot alot of different kinds of relationships, yes?
and i'm not ashamed to tell you that i've been thru worse.
well, things back then were somewhat s t u p i d.
another word to define it, silly.
i've regretted and i've learned.
alot of things happened when i was still in that situation.
some may say, do not regret what you've done from the past.
cherish every moments eventho it hurts so bad.
but i find that, by cherishing it, wont make me feel calm but to think even more.
to think more as in, nonsense and blah-blah when you're starting a new relationship.


okay, i'm just saying what i think it's true.
and plus, i've been seeing alot of couples that i know, breaking away~
*snaps finger* just like that.
not to be a busy body or something, but maybe they're doin the right thing or maybe not.
well for me, negotiaton is not just everything.
heart to heart talk is something.
i've been thinking like this way since a very long time ago.
and i hope it's still working fine on me.
and btw, i'm not saying that i'm lacking of love from my love ones.
but this is how i feel for the others. whatmore, my friends.




fact: Love is like a butterfly. when you hold it too tight, it will crush.
when you hold it too loose, it will fly away.


*sighs unendingly*
maybe you'll think i'm talking craps now.
well....maybe i am and maybe i'm not.
just read, and you'll understand.
'cause i suck in putting words and facts that are playing on mind.
sucks, i know.

refering to Vivian's blog, i have to agree hundred percent-ly.
the word trust is a very very big word.
or shud i say, d a n g e r o u s.
(yes, red colour again)
words like that, we gotta think twice before saying it out to the other partner or whoever.
'cause why? when you say the word trust, they'll hope and rely only on you to not break the "trust" between both of you.
especially in a relationship, they'll basically hope that you wont break their heart.
so, remember, think twice before saying something or doing something.
or even better, think thrice.


so many things happened in this month.
so many dramas playing around.
so many distractions.
so many breaking up stories.
and the list of chaotic dramas goes on~




fact: say what you need to say. don't hold back. don't hide. love and to be loved.


if i'm falling apart,
will anyone catch me?
if my heart is breaking into half,
will anyone mend it for me?
if today is the end of the world,
will anyone tell me they love me?
and if i'm not even exist,
i don't think i'll be facing this cruel world.








don't cha wanna live a cruelty-free world?
sighs, i do. and i don't kno when can that happen.






last but not least, i love you guys.
you guys are pricless to me. very worthy.
we had our ups and downs together.
but do you kno, that's how we build our love strong and forever.
i love you ♥