i want to know.


Have you ever felt like you love that person but that person just don't bother to love you back?
Have you ever felt like you wanna say 'imy' to that person but something pulls you back?
Have you ever felt like you need a hug so bad but no one was there to give it to you?
Have you ever felt like the world is gonna end so soon when that person does not even bother to talk to you like he/she did before?
Have you ever love and lost somebody, wish there was a chance to say 'i'm sorry'?

It's all about have you ever..
But in the other way round, me, Yes, i ever.


& it feels like the big tall KLCC building just crashed onto me.
Ouch, that hurts alot.
I might just die if it really happens.
But, tho, i may look like nothing has happened to me, but on the inside, it feels like i need a breaking-free.


I could say billion times of sorry to you but it doesn't work that way.
Sorry, doesn't mean anything. & it doesn't even cure a bit. Action, is something.
But even when i say a small simple sorry, would you even bother to understand whats behind the word? Do you? Even bother?

Do you? Even care?


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Okay, scracth that.
I just, just, couldn't let out my feelings to you.
Cause im really really scared that you will just put down all my hopes & dreams, again.

So i'll sit and pray or maybe even wish that my heart wont be broken, again.
You might plastered my small broken pieces of my heart & you might break it again.
Thats what im worried about if i get too close to the *heat.

*sighs*



Anyways, im starting to have this inspiration in learning to bake/make cupcakes!
They are cute and lovely and fun to eat!
I've inspired by this site Bakerella.
Click and enjoy!


*sometimes i wonder, what if i make a big prodigious cupcake with the shape of a heart and put some writings on it about my life......*

zzzz;;

I just realised that i didn't put anymore 'interesting' photos in my blog nowadays.
Maybe, i shud put it, now.

*just to fill up this page. *winks*


OLD PHOTOS:

I'm currently sick, right now.

And im suffering the nose-block-ness. lol.
No such word. But yeah, i had the running nose since last monday.
If i'm not mistaken.
Dude, this is so a hard time for me.
I had to go to school with bringing loads of loads of tissue packs.
I used three to five packs today.
Amazingly, i didn't faint.
I even brought vicks! Goodiegawd.

So, tomorrow's gonna be a miserable day for me, and for the rest of you All Saintlians.
Why? 'cause it's gonna be the Judgement Day.
Damn. I can hear the nagging(s) in my ear now.
But lets all just pray and hope my parent and Yours will just be cool with it. XD
Which, it will never happen. haha.

FLU.FLU.FLU.
Sucks.



So, everything seems okay i guess. But, nah lets not talk about it here. Ima spoil everything, again. Anyways, imssmticdn. hahaha. Figure that out yourself. Don't ask me. *winks winks*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE MY 'LIL NAUGHTY YET CUTE YET LOVELY YET CHUBBY YET ADROBALE YET CHEEKY BROOOOOOTHA! ♥♥♥
I love yoooooooou!!

He's, turning to 1 year old tomorrow[27o6o8] and i'm very very the excited! TEEHEE! I couldn't help it but lets just wish him earlier. :p

I don't understand why most of the people that i asked about if they know who is Air Supply, they'll just answer 'No, i don't' or 'who the hell is that?' or 'whaaaat?' or 'huuuuh?' or 'say who?' or ' whaddamadhaaforrrk?' or 'you're gay'.

Oh gawd, AIR SUPPLY IS SOOOOOO FAMOUS! in the oldies
But stiiiiiiiiiiiiiill. T_T

Gawd, that was a gay moment.
haha. :p

Ima post tomorrow. =)
ttfn ♥

Karma's a trip now.

It's the end of the world.
I can't stand all the fake/good/bad dramas in my life.
So many complicating dramas, in life.

Yeah i know, everyone have to face different kinds of dramas everyday in their lives.
But as for me, i feel like dying.
I'm learning everything that has happened in my life.

Today, Yesterday and days to come.
I'm not only learning, it's more like killing myself.


I might regret everything that i've done.
And i might not regret.
But mostly, it's all about love. Sucks.

I love my family and my friends.
wait, maybe i spook too soon about the 'friends'.
I have pretty nice friends.
I love them, i care, i appreciate whatever they have done for me & i will always cherish them.

Just sometimes, sometimes. You put too much of these pretty stuffs on them, they'll just take it as a granted.
Isn't it sad?
Now, i feel like, it's only me myself and I.
Thats all i have for now.

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[you stands for everyone that i'm close with. Yes, even my bestfriends.]

everynight i gaze into the dark grey skies
thinking whether the love is still there
knowing that no one cares
maybe i shud take a knife
and put it inside
the heart of mine.

i never ever in my life felt so left out by you
by anyone of you
that i'm close to
back to the old days when you and i
laughed and smiled
thinking about the past, made me cry
'cause all you ever gave me is just another lie.

Now your pulling down my hopes and dreams
giving me fake faces like there's no ending
you even make others believe you
so that your plan of making my life miserable will come true.

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So much of my quotes, so much of my time.
So much of this friendship, that i saved it for the rest of my life.
*sighs*

Went to 1borneo; bought nothing. As usuall. My sis & my mum bought their tops and laggings. Meet up with Sharlyn and her family after that. Walked all around 1borneo. Which was really tiring; especially with alot of people in a mall. You know, people pushing you and alot of hectic momments yeah. Gawsh. Sharlyn and I went to Jigsaw World Puzzle. We were amazed by the puzzles! It's sooo bootiful! Bad part about this is, it's too expensive man. *sighs* I'll come and get you sometime when i become a millionaire, Puzzles.
Talking about 'puzzles', I'm puzzled by my life and by many many more people. *sighs*

Anyways, went home around 5p.m. Slept in the car, bathed and get dressed for dinner. And we had Bak Kut Teh. I don't kno what does it call in English but, sure all of you asians kno what is that right? If you don't, then you're gay.

So, tomorrow's gonna be IU Day! International Understanding Day. Excited yet assuming that it is sure gonna be an exhausting day. *sighs again* Was told to wear skirt tomorrow with the lime-green tee. GAAWSH. It might look weird but, don't care lah. Gonna wake up really early tomorrow to set up the stall in Centre Point, Palm Square. *sighs again and again* Sounds busy? No? haha.




I ATE ALOT JUST NOW.






Sometimes, just sometimes, i feel like i only have fake people around me. It's just that, i can't really have the 'love' feeling that i wanted so badly. Even if im close to reaching that happy ending, someone, somehow will just spoil it; everything. All in all, i just can't really get what i want. :(


*sighs unendingly*

So i was told not to take any fried foods for the meantime.
Why?
Cause i need to cure and maintain my acne problem! Grrrr!
I can't stand it not eatingeggs, meaats, fried prawwwwns and so on that can causes acne on my face! Especially Chocolates. *screams*

I was suppose to go to SMC(Sabad Medica Centre) for my skin chek-up; Dermatologist. But, unfortunately, my mum thought of something even better than wasting 90 bucks for the check-up. So yes, I drank some awful vegetable blended drink! *pukes* It was oookay lah. I guess. :s

But, i really really really really hope doin this can really really really really cure my acne problem!

Look at the brightside, I can lose some weight at the same time! *giggles*


I guess.

Now is the time for me to say Goodbye to half of my fave foods.
Goodbye, my lovelies.
I will miss you. *sniffs*

Sometimes i feel like it's not only me you love.
Sometimes i feel like it's not only me you care.
Sometimes i feel like it's not only me you really want to be with.
Sometimes i feel like it's not only me that makes you happy.
Sometimes i feel like it's only a plain Hello with no meanings behind.
Sometimes i felt left out by you.
Sometimes i don't kno if all this is true.
Sometimes you lift me up.
Sometimes you let me fall.
Sometimes you make me feel like im at the top of the world.
Sometimes you make me feel like im only just Her.
Sometimes you make me smile.
Sometimes you make me cry.
Sometimes i thought we were that close to happy ending.
But sometimes i feel like, this is the real 'The End'.



So many sometimes that made my life more complicated than it looks like.


Sometimes, i just wanna be with you.
Sometimes, i don't think you feel the same way as i do.

As i was browsing thru my collections of avatars, i found some interesting pictures that will make you roll on the floor laughing your ass out! *giggles*













Laughters are good!
Hope you enjoyed it ;)

♥♥

I felt like a lil-primary-school kid today!

Don't ask why.
I'll post the pictures that i took today and you'll kno why i felt like a kid just now.

hahaha.

It was fun! teehee~

Todaaay, is a very wonderful day. Why? Cause i ain't having no tuition for tonight. We're gonna have 'kuo chung' [sticky rice]. *jumps with joy* Okay okay okay. Lets see, do you guys even kno what is 'kuo chung'? It's something thats gotta do with Chinese thing. I don't really kno why we need to do this but, it taste soo good! Especially when my grandmomS making it. *slurps*

I'm not gonna online for two days! or maybe one and a half day. haha. I'm goin to Karambunai for holiday! Yes, i kno, it's kinda late for a nice and comfy holls but, what to do. We have to tolerate my uncle's schedule. So yeap.

'Karambunai ;some say it's heaven'
Do you agree? I don't really agree tho.
hahaha. I still love Rasa Ria. ♥


Message to Joshua : Now it's myyyyy turn to go for a nice comfy holls in Karambunai! WEEHEE! hahaha. :p

Photos.

I was thinking.

Why not?
Standing under your umbrella of love.

It has been raining for like two or more days. Cold and windy. More like a, Silent Night, without snow. Yeah. I'm bored. So bored, i could die.

So, since im THAAT bored, i might just put some photos of LOVE. haha. :D

I love this song.


You ask me if I love you and I choke on my reply.
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie.

And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning
To see the real you.

Chorus:
And sometimes when we touch,
The honesty's too much,
And I have to close my eyes and hide.
I wanna hold you till I die,
Till we both break down and cry.
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides.

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride.
But through the insecurity,
Some tenderness survives.

I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truths;
A hesitant prizefighter
Still trapped within my youth.

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
.At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly.

At times I understand you,
And I know how hard you've tried.
I've watched while love commands you,
And I've watched love pass you by.

At times I think we're drifters,
Still searching for a friend,
A brother or a sister.
But then the passion flares again.

*repeat chorus.
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I was thinking, is all this worth it?
*sighs*

So, my tuition was suppose to start at 7 p.m but my sis and i left the house late. which was, 7 p.m. *stares sarcastically at the screen*. We thought, well, mostly MY SIS thought that it was okay to left the house late abit, but guess what? It was hella jam! And why jam you ask? Blame the government for this, they raise the petrol price up to RM2.70! The roads were pretty hectic and jam all the way. *curses*

Luckily, we managed to reach on time. Well, not really ON TIME. Like around 15 minutes late. Woops. My teacher came at 7.30?! Dammit. So we started our class late. He let us go back early, so yeah we did. And so, i thought, goin back early was BETTER. But guess not. My sis and i waited in the car for around 9 something p.m untill around 11 p.m? I can't really remember the time tho.

For the climacs on this part, My sis went to pay the fuel and load it in. I was like sooo relief after she filled the car up with full-tanked fuel. But, i spoke too soon. My sis couldn't start the engine. *curses even more* It was damn chaotic dude i tell you. Noticed that my sis didn't close back the cover of the put-in-the-fuel thingy. I don't kno what they call it but yeah. So, i opened the door[i sat the backseat] and close it just like that. She started with the engine again. and again. and again. ENDLESS. Luckily, there were four or five dudes came to help my sis to push the car to somewhere near the pretrol station. And then, came an unkown Chinese guy driving a nice silky black Harrier and asked what happened.

If you must know, the car were pushed and stopped at CKS. And so, the frantic begins. My mum and dad called my sis and I, like legion times. The man who owns the Harrier car helped us by buying a new battery for the car. Thank Gawd he have a good heart. ♥ [i kinda summarize the story abit]. So we drove home safely. And yes, here i am. Bloging and cursing all the way. Thanks to the government for raising the price of the fuels, NOT.

Cause for YOU guys raise the fuelss' price, there were so many hectic momments on the road that happened just now. Cars crashed, sound pollution of the honks from the impatient drivers and so on.

Back then when we were in the car, listened to sooo many kinds of songs! Oldies, RnB, blues and all. It kinda got me feeling emotionally emo that time. When SOMEONE didn't reply that SOMEONE'S msg and phone calls. *sighs*

I was told to not post any entry about this incident, but oh well sis, I couldn't help it but just let it all out here. *smiles widely* :D

AND i'm goin to school tomorrow, to meet my friends. Has been two days since i met them. haha. Sorry belle and elle. OH YEAH, not to forget, belle have a blog now! SHE BLOGS, finally. Yay for that. *grins*

Belinduuuh ♥ <- click it if you're happy.

So, thats for tonight. Bad one but yeah, at least i've experienced something that do with CARs.

♥♥

Sometimes, we shud not over-do it with/in life. What i mean is, do not over-used your money for stuffs, expensive stuffs that you really want it cause just for show. Do not over-limit your time goin out or hanging around with your bunch of 'cool' friends doin nothing but wasting money and time. And many more.

Sometimes, i asked myself, is this really worth doin it? I don't think so. Honestly, I love spending my times with my family more than that with my friends. No, not because my parents can pay anything that i want them to buy. It's because, i love talking and sharing my feelings with them, their laughters & jokes make my day, no matter where or when. And yes, we, teenagers nowadays like to argue with our parents just cause we wanna hang with our friends or buy stuffs that are expensive/useless. This is not right people! You, WE need some senseeee in yours and OUR brains.

Though your parents may treat you like you don't deserve love or so on, but do something to let them see with their own eyes that you are not just like any other useless child, you are something special. :) hmmm, i kno it's weird writing this entry, but i just felt like letting it out. Telling each and everyone of you of what i feel and whats my opinion. I read Miraen's blog and it was nice. I actually read it all till end. & i have to agree with her too, about getting all you want (im talking about materials) isn't just it, it's love from someone who really cares, especially your family that matters.

So, here i am. writing all down.
All we need is a hug and show everyone that we care and love them from the very bottom of our hearts. =)

♥♥

Ah yes, im ina mood to write lyrics! or maybe just A lyric.
Nothing better to do, so, thats it!
I'm gonna ready pen and a piece of paper now. Write it all down.

By the way, Joshua made his own blog!
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.
Joshua R.
Click it & check it out. He only made ONE post, which is so uncool. ahah. kidding. :p

♥♥