Exhausted . Tired . Sleepy . Sad .

I feel like I've been crashed down by Sadness & I am seriously feeling really depressed. I need a hug. *hugs the pillow. I hate myself now, literally. *sigh. Must I really have to forget about him? forget about having a wonderful love life again? forget EVERY . SINGLE . THING? *cries. Mostly, everyone hates my attitude. My attitude is a major problem now. My mom agreed with them people that dislike my attitude. I'm trying really hard to change here. But, no one is giving me hope. No one, none. Do you know what I need now? I need a shoulder to cry on. I almost cried when I was in the car when my mom was telling me about how bad my attitude is. I just hold on to my tears from falling down on my cheeks. Looked outside the window, sigh in the heart, thinking whether shud I let go or not. All I see in my life now is just a dull light. I wish someone or whoever can brighten up my life again. But I think that'll never happen, for now. I just have to go on with all by myself. Though, my strenghts are getting lesser day by day but I'll build it up, somehow. I need a rest. I need to rest my mind. My mind is driving me crazy now.